First off, I’d like to let my followers know (yes….I have 6 on Tumblr….trust me….I have plenty more of family and friends that read this blog regularly on FB and Twitter!!)
Anywhoo, I’d like to let you know that I have come to the realization that I have been suffering from anxiety and depression the past several months.
Surprised? Probably. Because I’m the girl that keeps you smiling even when I’m sad. Actually, I started medication and I started seeing this amazing counselor (shout out to my boy Tres!! LOL).
I can finally breathe. I feel so much better about myself and about everything/everyone in my life. It’s always a journey towards healing, but I’m right there. It’s like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel I was in.
Back to my blog. You’ll notice that I’ll probably be blogging a lot over the next week. Tres (who WILL be reading these lol) challenged me to writing for at least 15 minutes for 4 days. He wanted me to write these by hand…really Tres? LOL! Kidding…I get it. I can just get so much more done by typing haha.
Let’s see. What do I want to write about today? What am I feeling? I think I’m feeling more and more as though I want to delete my online dating profiles. Having an online dating profile is a bad relationship in itself. It’s like I’m dating the site and I just keep getting let down by these creepers who won’t stop sending me pictures of their junk.
You become co-dependent on these websites in hopes of finding someone to love and finding someone who will love you. Then you get your hopes up only to find out that the person you thought you knew turned out to be someone so different.
So why is it so hard for me to delete them? I feel like maybe I’ll “miss out” if there’s one decent person on there maybe. I don’t know.
All I know is I trust in God enough to know he will place the right person in my life in His time…dating profile or not. So…I’m deleting them. Tonight.
Sorry boys…I need a man, not a 15 year old horny teenager. More importantly, I need a man of GOD. Someone who places God FIRST in his life.